A giving and loving spirit has left this world, his name was Larry. A bright light has gone out and left us in the dark and cold. Just when we think we can't see or feel, we are so numb from the pain. Larry reaches down and lifts us up. He speaks softly and lovingly to us, to help mend our broken hearts. We hear the words, he speaks to us.
It is a song that I have heard a hundred times and yet this time it means something. "Summer, Fall, Winter or Spring, All you have to do is call, just call my name, and I'll be there, You've got a friend." I broke down in tears---hot, painful tears. Larry was near to me, speaking to me, wanting to comfort me, Larry wanted me to know he was watching over me.
When a loved one passes away, we are in such muck and mire that it is hard to function at any level, we know there are 5 stages to grieving but don't care. We have pain and people are telling us, it gets better. Not really. We just become more numb to the pain but our loved ones have left a whole in our hearts. We don't ever stop missing them---their voice and the way they said our name, their smile, and their zest for life. Everyone is poorer for their absence among us. They have left their mark on us all.
DEATH is horrible. It robs us of a part of us, even if it isn't us, that passes away. I am a believer, of our Savior, Jesus Christ but death is still difficult for the ones that are left behind. The pain, loneliness, despair of never seeing or ever talking to your loved ones again---is heart breaking.
Author, Silvia Brown, says our loved ones come to us in different ways, to comfort us and let us know that they are watching over us. I have always believed this. My Mother, comes to me in spirit and touches my heart. Her special way is with the Cardinal, her favorite bird. Without a doubt, when I see a Cardinal, I know my Mother is around. Just as I knew for sure, Larry was around, when I heard the song, "You've Got a Friend."
When you experience the death of a loved one or have already lost a loved one, be in tuned with things around you. In the littlest way, they may be trying to tell you, " I am here with you and I love you."
I am still not very coherent, so forgive me for not being more eloquent but my heart is in the right place. Change is needed for our growth. Even if it comes in the nature of death. Many times, in order to survive we have to start a change process. I did this after my Aunt Jackie's death, Larry's Mother, just a year ago. We sometimes need to get rid of old memories, habits and other past traditions. Only freed from past burdens, can we take advantage of the present.
I will admit that I am always stuck in the stage of "denial" and find comfort in past memories. I know my loved ones are gone but can't think about their lose. I would rather just think that they are living their life as normal. I have always embraced change and like it, but not the death of my loved ones.
So, take heart, do your best to accept what happens but don't allow anyone to belittle your grief, it is yours, only you knows how it feels. Talk to your loved ones and allow them to comfort you. They are in Heaven but still with us.
The Bald Eagle, to avoid the rain flies above the clouds, is it any wonder that God wants us to spread our wings and soar with the Eagles.
Larry is in Heaven with the wings of the Eagle. I know your loved ones are there also, with all of my loved ones as well---this knowledge, our only comfort in their passing.
GOD BLESS THIS DAY THE LORD HAS MADE,
GOD BLESS US, EVERYONE, RM
